Self Sacrifice Has No Place Living as A Quantum Awakening Person

"What usually has the strongest psychic effect on the child is the life which the parents...have not yet lived."

    Carl Jung

As a child, I watched how my parents lived their lives.  They both worked hard, barely made ends meet, and over and over again sacrificed to someone or something else.  They gave themselves away to each other, to their culture, to their work, to their bills, and to me.  They are both gone now, and as I reflect, I see their lives were not without accomplishment or growth. Indeed, I think they did their growth work in their own way. Sometimes consciously, sometimes not.

When they passed I believe they transitioned better people.  However, I do not believe either lived their true potential.   They lived a potential, but perhaps not their truest, most fulfilling potential.

They probably watched their parents sacrifice, who watched theirs, and theirs before them. For generations we have lived the way of self-sacrifice.  I followed the road map of should and self-sacrifice for many years.  I followed these until the quantum waved its flag toward my attention and I learned there is a truer way of being. A way that is beneficial to everyone, myself included.

Sacrifice is a loss of something you give up, usually for the sake of a better cause.  Parents sacrifice time and sleep to take care of their children.   The sacrifices made as parents are gladly given in order to do the best for our children.  That's a good thing.  And everyone makes sacrifices for others in many ways.  If sacrifice is rooted in caring, sharing, and comes from a balanced center the outcome is beneficial..  We have, however, given ourselves over to the vagaries of self-sacrifice. We are out of balance and  have lost who we truly are.

When we lose ourselves, we begin to feel inadequate and insecure.  Our self-esteem chips away, and we try to find ways to compensate.  We sacrifice ourselves to the "Gods" of drink, drugs, self flagellation, even to divine beings.  We go to church, take communion, do penance, pay karma, volunteer when we need rest, all to appease whatever our "god" happens to be.  Anything to "find" fulfillment, and to fill the hole.  We will never be whole by trying to fill the hole.

If we are ever to dig ourselves out from the hole of self-deception and reside in the wholeness of our self,  the paradigm of self-sacrifice needs to shift to a paradigm of true self love.  Fulfillment occurs when we live from a balanced, loving center, being fully human and fully divine.   It doesn't mean we are perfect.   Trying to be perfect is just another form of sacrificing ourselves to some standard outside ourselves, a standard which is based in familial and cultural agenda.

Our family and western culture tells us we are selfish if we love ourselves.  This is a form of control based upon a narcissistic definition of self love and  is not a quantum, universally based definition.  The self-love to which I refer arises naturally as we shed our self-distortions and occurs when we do our personal work, preferably with consciousness..

I feel the truth in Carl Jung's quote cited above.  My parent's influence came not so much from what they did, but from what they didn't do.  In gratitude, my attempt to live differently is my gift back to them.   Pass it along.

The Playbook facilitates a process which will help you release your self-distortions.  Think of a situation or a person to which you feel you are giving yourself away.  Self-select a matrix and follow the process outlined for that matrix.  Notice if there is a change. 

Remember to do the "Make a Difference" step outlined for each matrix with which you play.

A cool tip is that self love is natural in play.  It is not natural in stress.

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The Quantum Applecart

A number of years ago, upon awakening into the quantum world, I began making life decisions, many of which were not the most popular decisions on the block.  As I made decisions that undid my falsely constructed world of self, more and more I fell out of popularity with the upwardly mobile, normal crowd.

I remember having a Tarot reading at that time.  I selected a card with a picture of people inside a church window looking out on the street at the poor beggars who were out in the cold.  The tarot reader told me this is the way people viewed me, as being out in the cold.  I felt a combination of anger and not giving a crap all at the same time.  The conformist," fit-in-girl" within didn't like being out in the cold, but the rebel within me was complimented by being an outcast.

Twenty plus years have passed and the memory of upsetting the apple cart still is with me.  However, I have had 20 years to watch how the decision to answer the quantum call has unfolded into an awakened life of grace.  Not always ease, but grace indeed.  I wouldn't change my decision to jump into the quantum soup.  Now I would guess the people around me who were affected by my decisions along the way recognize how I and they have benefited.  Some probably still view me as being out in the cold.  I pray for them.

It takes guts to answer the call and upset the apple cart.  But when the quantum gets our attention and takes hold, life will change.  Why?  Because you will change.  How?  You will become less and less who you think you are and more and more you will become who you really are.  That's the Truth.

But here's the catch.  The truer you become to yourself, other's around you will be forced to look at who they are.  Or not.  In any event, you will upset the proverbial apple cart of complacent everyday life.  It isn't the most popular consensus reality choice to make.  But then the quantum world doesn't jive with consensus reality.

Fortunately there are brave souls out there who mean to change that.  Will you be one of them?  To me there is only one choice to make and that is the choice to be uniquely who you are.  It is an incredible, beautiful thing when someone is willing to be exactly who they are.  I'd love to throw a party to celebrate that!

Cynthia Torp, Director of The One World Puja Network said it well.  "...to all of you who are not trying to be like everyone else, who know what it means to conform - and aren't interested, who follow your own unique spirit or calling, who are willing  to be uniquely different on this planet - I celebrate you.  I thank you sincerely for daring to be different!  Thank you for knowing that you can only make a difference by being uniquely who you are.  Thank you for showing the world that so much more is possible than most imagine."

Now that is quantum!  Cheers!

Ask yourself the question, "am I a quantum apple cart up setter?"  Then take out your Playbook and see which matrices show up to answer your question.

Healing and Love Come From Many Sources - Guest Blogger

A recent playgroup participant shared her experience about healing.  I share it with you.

Written by:  Cindy K.

Healing and  Love Come From Many Sources

Animals have been a catalyst for my healing, as my life in the past taught me to trust humans very little.

Horses walked into my life and taught me freedom  to walk away from an unhappy marriage and a controlling religion. It took me a while to realize how it all happened, but on looking back, there was a direct connection with the horses. I had never felt so light, free and happy when with these new animals that were brought to me  at midlife.

As I expanded my experience of massage to include equine massage, my continued work with horses taught me their energy merges with ours and they indeed help to release our personal negativge energy, explaining why humans feel so positive around them. Their use in therapy for disabled and dysfunctional people has exploded on the scene in the last ten years, now that this has been researched and utilized..

A friend widened my area of understanding about animals when he suggested I read Ted Andrews book "Animal Speak" wherein he talks about the different energies, messages and wisdom that comes from various species.  It took me a while to apply what was being taught, but I finally found myself looking for the messge behind an animal that I didn't normally see in my area or being presented in an unusual fashion.

One day I was walking to my mailbox and I noticed a dead cardinal in my path.  I got a stick and moved it into the large neighboring pasture about 30' away in the tall grass.  The next day I went to the mailbox and saw the exact same bird in the same place.  I couldnt believe it was the same bird so I walked over into the pasture and searched diligently, to no avail.  I then researched in the Ted Andrew's book and found the information in the last paragraph about cardinals...." you may want to connect further with some religious part of your life that is missing, as the cardinal can reflect on the cardinals in Catholicism".  However. this was a DEAD cardinal, so I looked at it as a confirmation that leaving my church was being wise for me.  (I had been dealing with some emotional issues concerning that very subject).

Then one day a bald eagle flew into my backyard and landed in my tree. WOW,, nothing more regal and demanding of attention than that. I barely breathed as I looked up at him, thanking him for coming into my yard and bringing me a powerful message. After he left, I looked up the information and trusted my inner 'knowing' to connect with the applicable message for me. I was greatly honored.

Sitting on the front porch swing at dawn with a cup of coffee. a heron flies low in front of me. I was appreciative but didnt really acknowledge the message until the third one flew in front of me.  The becoming aware, noticing and acknowledging the power behind the message is truly powerful.

A bobcat at dusk,,, an owl hooting in the distance,,,or an elephant coming to me in a dream are all messages'

About a month ago I entered my library and noticed that the belt on the floor wasn't actually a belt but a six foot snake that was stationary.  Startled, I backed up quickly and he went behind a piece of furniture.  A harnless black snake, I asked a neighbor to gently remove him to the barn to safely care for poisonous snakes out there.  Looking up the information, it stated that I was now ready to shed my old skin, making way for new, healthy environment. I really liked that as I was questioning some challenges along those lines.

Last week during my daughter's visit, I stepped onto my enclosed back porch to see thousands of ants streaming in two separate paths,, one going east and one going west.  I was startled because I had never seen an ant inside my home before.  Now there were thousands. At first I thought of getting the wasp spray (which I use for fiddle back spiders who are very poisonous here in Okla) but then I stopped and wondered if there could be a message for me.  I got Ted's book and found a very important piece of the puzzle for me.  After reading it, I went back to the porch and thanked the ants for the message, appreciating their presence and blessing them and then stating that it was alright for them to leave.  Twenty minutes later they were completely gone.  Both my daughter and I were astounded with the whole experience.

Being aware and open to new experiences has been a tremendous blessing in my life and rather than fear or doubt something, I research and see what applies to me.  I have always been connected to animals but had no idea that they could open our souls and give us a whole new life, when we are ready.It just further confirms my new belief that we are all one, all connected, all loving.

Expanding Quantum Consciousness

The greatest fear we have is not that we will go broke, loose our job, loose our mate, loose our home, and the list goes on....The greatest fear we have is the fear of life and truly being ourselves.  At first glance you may say, "well, that is ridiculous, of course I want to be myself."  Well I can tell you that in the many years of working with hundreds of people, whatever fear someone brought through my door, when distilled, was the fear of personal greatness and the knowing of oneself as a truly powerful being.  I witnessed people making up all kinds of stories in order to maintain their comfortable fear-based perspective.

Ironic that we would be afraid to be ourselves.  We have made our ego bigger than life and now the ego runs the show.  Our ego chooses to maintain the fear-based stories and becomes the powerful director of our choice.  Choices are made to support our fear.

If we understand that our choices are powerfully catalytic, we would be careful about making them.  We have lost the knowing of the true power of our choice.  Expanding into quantum consciousness necessitates we remember this truth.  We must know the power of our choice is as potent as the sun's energy.  We are an immense spirit.

We need examples of this truth.  And one example is demonstrated in Anita Moorjani's story of her near-death experience.  Ms. Moorjani was at death's door, at the end of a three-year battle with cancer.  Dying, she had a near-death experience, came back, and her cancer was gone.  She recounts her experience in this delightful You Tube interview.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWf8V1PXN-k&feature=fvwp&NR=1

The title of her newly-released book is "Dying to Be Me".  Check it out.

When you awaken to the power of your choice, you will begin to make different choices and your life will get better.

Play with Matrices #10, #25, #14, #27, #35

Quantum Consciousness - Where to Start

World behind the world

My first experience with hearing the word "quantum" was in 1991.  Someone invited me to attend an all-day program with Susan Jeffers, Bernie Segal, Deepak Chopra, and Wayne Dyer.  At the time I hadn't heard of any of these people, but attending the conference seemed better than sitting behind my desk all day so off I went.

I found the speakers motivating to be sure, and obviously something inside myself was ready to awaken, otherwise I would have preferred sitting behind my desk that day.  Deepak Chopra was the third presenter, and he began by talking about something called "quantum healing."  My reaction was something greater than bells and whistles and short of a major nuclear explosion going off inside myself.  I began to sob those embarrassing, uncontrollable kinds of sobs that sound more a wailing fox.  If you have ever heard a wailing fox you would know it is not a pretty sound.  The longer he spoke, the greater the dam opened and the tears streamed.  I woke up inside.  My relationship with the quantum began.

I can't explain this relationship through my experience as a quantum physicist.  I have none.  I can only share what has been my 20+ years of practical and heuristic study.  I continue to posit my assertions as I wander, wonder, integrate, explore, and awaken within quantum consciousness.

Someone once told me they loved taking my classes on quantum consciousness because I explained the topic in a simple way they could understand. Simple understanding equates to simple explanation.  However, simple doesn't mean easy.  And this is where I focus and where the mastery occurs.  Not my mastery, but your mastery.  Awakening to your quantum self is a next evolutionary step, a step I believe we are now taking.

Newtonian physics would have us believe our world is only what we see, not because science wishes to limit its perspective, but it  has worked hard to explain the world we see in front of our eyes.  Good job.  We are limited by the science of our times, and now quantum science is taking us into a new world.  A world which exists at the level behind our eyes.  A reality which has been deemed to be non-ordinary but is probably more real than one to which we currently subscribe.   It is a field comprised of the smallest of particles, appearing to have a mind of their own.  It is the world behind the world.

You must acknowledge, accept, and eventually integrate the knowing that there is world behind the world, and a world behind what you see as you. This is where you start. 

The Matrix Magic Playbook speaks to you in that world.  As you play in the book, greater awareness about yourself will occur and your quantum self will naturally respond to the truth of you.  The shifts and changes within will happen so quickly you will feel they occurred as if by magic.

Play with Matrices #11, #27, #32, #14, #9.

Awaken Your Quantum Consciousness

There continue to be reports of elephants being killed.  Recently I read more accounts from the BBC.  Additionally the BBC reports today that more than half of the common plant species and a third of animals could see a serious decline in their habitat range because of climate change.  New research suggests that biodiversity around the world will be significantly impacted if temperatures rise more than 2C. Nature Climate Change recently published a paper on the subject.  The report goes on to say that if greenhouse gasses are cut rapidly then the impact on biodiversity could be significantly curbed.  

Elephant killings, habitat loss, globing warming...Our human impact is immense.  We are impacting our environment in a way that is creating decline outside the normal laws of entropy.   But we also can have impact in the direction towards positive change.   We can exponentially change things if we learn how to  engage at the quantum level of life and direct our energies out into the world from a balanced center of self.

A physicist once told me that without the quantum, nothing else would exist.   If we focus on our quantum selves through our meditations, prayers, and centering practices and then take action in sustainable directions we can and will create the world in which we wish to live.  That is a promise.  We are the promise we have been waiting for.

Living life awake and aware of the quantum world and making the choice for altruistic outcome will exponentially change life on earth.  Begin with yourself.  Wake up to yourself and awaken your quantum consciousness.

Play with matrices #10, #17, #30, #14, #11, #25, #33

Does Life Get Any Easier as You Progress on the Spiritual Path - Conscious Response

Recently I was asked the question about whether or not traveling the spiritual path of  life becomes easier the farther we progress in the journey.  This is a commonly asked question because we want things to be easy.  But easy is a human fabrication, and not a question of concern to the spirit.  

There are many reasons people turn to the path of spiritual growth. Many do so because life is not easy or something was falling apart or was not working as well as we would wish.  Problems are actually stepping stones into a bigger "us."   The inner nudging from our soul sometimes turn into a crash that takes us to the bottom of the barrel before we are willing to listen.  Something has to get our attention.

I wouldn't say that the activities in life become easier necessarily, but I would say that what does become easier is the ability to be consistently grounded in our spiritual center.   External circumstances do not have the same effect, and we see things through a different lens.  Not a lens of indifference, but a lens solidly grounded in the trust or the knowing of a bigger picture.

A grounded center of being conflicts with our creating trauma drama, therefore the superfluous constructs of these activities do diminish as one grows spiritually.  A peaceful co-existence with self is established and is reflected out into the world around us.  Peace feels quiet and humans tend to interchange the words "peace" and "boredom." 

The human psyche isn't accustomed to peace as a way of being and will try over and over again to create drama as the greater self gravitates to peace.  It is important to remain vigilant about not falling prey to what the ego tries to construct.  We must constantly choose to align not with the mechanistic actions of ego, but with the energetics of a more favorable choice.  

We are not immune from the day-to-day business of paying the bills, facing challenging health crises, sitting next to a troubled friend, etc. but it is possible to live in a state of equanimity and balance when responding to daily life occurrences.  In fact, the responsibility (RESPONSE ABILITY) to do so becomes greater.  As we become more consciously awake and grounded in our divine self, our capacity for clarity increases and we become aware of other's misconstructions.  No longer do we have the luxury of the slippery slope of judgement.  Rather we must live in "conscious response."

To the buddhist the ability for conscious response is grounded in  "detachment" with "compassion."  To the Christian it is grounded in "love." To the Lakota Sioux it is grounded in "the wisdom of wakan tanka."   To the Sufi it is grounded in "purity and adaptability."  To the Kabbalist is is grounded in the tree of life."  And on it goes.

To me conscious response is heaven on earth, and if the plan is to spiritually progress to the greatest extent of our human capacity we must forget the lofty new-age notion of "enlightenment" and aim towards "en-earthenment," or being the best we can be while on earth.  

Kindness goes along way towards this.

Play with Matrix #20.

Hello Okmulgee Playgroup

Hello to my Okmulgee friends from Oklahoma and Arkansas!

I love this picture I took in the Okmulgee State park.  It represents to me stepping up into the quantum mystery and magic of life.  The steps we took together when recently I facilitated a Matrix Magic Playgroup near Okmulgee Oklahoma. I was so inspired to meet new friends and to see the light that is being shared through each individual's work and interests.  Thanks to you all for being my teacher!   Our diverse group of gifted people shared a day of fun, laughter, food, and exploration into the deeper quantum self and matrix magic.  We played in the Matrix of "Kindness" and the next day I felt the energy of kindness washing through me like a gentle rain of blessing.  Blissed out!

Suggestions for the Okmulgee group:

I encourage this Playgroup to post  your experiences of the day in this blog and start a dialogue of blog posts to communicate with each other as you continue to deepen your experience with Matrix Magic Playbook within the quiet of your home.   Your comments, reflections, and sharing will help each other as a group and everyone else who views the blog site.

 Additionally I recommend you continue meeting as a group to play with the Matrix Magic Playbook in the company of others as group experience exponentially favors your personal growth.  Allow yourself to continue to explore the magic of  the quantum field and make a difference to all of life around you.

I love you all, and I thank you for allowing me to facilitate the group.

A bit about Okmulgee Oklahoma   

Okmulgee was founded in 1868, when the Creek National began restoring order after the Civil War.  The Creeks initially built a two-story log council house, open to tours, to serve as their capital.  The original building burned in 1878 and was replaced with the stone building that stands today.   The St. Louis, Oklahoma and Southern Railway arrived in 1900 and triggered a building boom.  By the time of statehood in 1907, the town had 2,322 residents.  The discovery of oil nearby in 1907 further expanded Okmulgee and brought new industries.  Okmulgee means "boiling waters: in the Creek language.  The population is around 13,000 and is notable as the seat of the Muscogee (Creek) Nation Tribal Complex.


A few miles away resides the Okmulgee State Park where my body, mind, and spirit rejoiced being in this incredible environment. Here are some pictures:

Reluctantly I leave the area only to look forward to returning sometime down the road.  Onward I go to my next stop and experience, leaving a trail of breadcrumbs for others to follow.

Start Your Matrix Magic Playgroup

Working in a group with the playbook will provide exponential impact to your process.  You can progress much faster with the power of a group.

I recommend you consider starting your own group.  It is easy and fun. The playbook contains a detailed description of how to start a group.

The multiplier of group energetics while working a spiritual inquiry process will catapult you into your starself.

Go for it!

Your Personal Transformation

This is a friendly reminder to open your Playbook and delve more deeply into yourself by working with the Matrices.  You will be amazed what magic can happen as more of yourself is revealed.  Now is the time, don't be shy.

If you haven't caught up with playing with the recommendations in prior blogposts, I suggest you go back and read the posts, then begin with the suggested matrices.

As you have seen, 2013 has been filled with personal and global challenges.  It is highly unlikely that these will diminish as we go forward.  The best way to be prepared is to be as resolved with your issues as you can be and this takes effort and intention.  Coming to resolution as unconscious material moves from the background to the foreground need not be a tedious process.  Maintaining a spirit of play by not taking ourselves too seriously is key.

In order to meet future challenges we must do our personal healing, and practice each and every day to be the best human we can be.  BE.

We tend to fall into habit patterns that lull us to sleep.  Rock-a-bye baby......